Wow. It's been ages since I've last digitally penned down my thoughts on this space I once called safe. So much had happened over the couple of months and it just didn't feel right to let everything out at once... I've been busy with the new semester (not really that new because I'm already done with all four of my assignments and am currently drowned by books as it's week 11 of uni). That means finals are just down the road and with that being said, I'll be done with my 2nd year of uni (!!) I honestly cannot wait to get uni over with but I know that me saying that would probably have me regretting a whole lot once I start adulting... But oh well, I guess that's the beauty of life, am I right? Maybe, or maybe not.
I've been taking way lesser photos, spending more time alone, watching way too many videos on interviews and talks by top leaders, catching up on the recent tragedy which happened in Las Vegas, checking up on friends who are currently studying abroad, finding a suitable career path that I want to venture into, searching for internships, polishing my CV for the thousandth time, reflecting on matters which I find myself constantly frustrated about, and the list goes on. I guess it's safe to say that at least I'm keeping myself busy instead of just being a lazy bum indulging in TV series. Fyi, I have no idea why but I can never ever finish an episode of any kind of series nowadays, is that a definite sign that I'm getting older? Someone please enlighten me haha.
Having my closest friends away from me doesn't make anything better. I miss them terribly and things aren't really the same when there's no one by my side dancing along to my favourite tunes.
On the bright side, did I mention that I'll be flying to the land of kangaroos next month to visit my friends? You can probably guess the country by my lack of creativity and suspense. I think I've gone a little too crazy by jotting down every single transaction that I plan to make... I even made sure that I'll be having gelato every single day. Call me crazy but hey, I've got to make the best out of my time there! I'll also be flying to Japan with my family the week after I get back and after that, my internship awaits me. Yay, the adulting life, great, awesome, fantastic! But in all seriousness, it was a rather tough time for me these past few months when it came to picking which career line I should enter into. I spent so much time researching on where my interests lie at and oh man, it was so stressful and hectic. I kept telling myself that I will never ever be on par with others, unwanted thoughts of how I am never good enough kept flooding all over my head. But after spending time reflecting for weeks, I realized that I shouldn't follow the norm of applying to the Big 4's but instead I should apply for an internship which fits my interests and one which I know will challenge me into doing things I've never even imagined myself doing. And guess what? I managed to land myself an internship that I really really wanted :') It was all God's work honestly, the saying - "Let go, and let God" really stuck with me throughout this whole process. Also not forgetting my ever supportive family, friends and boyfriend.
For now, I guess I've got to get back to studying. Out of the 4 units I'm taking, 2 of them are law units (Malaysian Company Law for my Accounting major & International Trade Law for my IB major) and it's been quite... tedious yet interesting at the same time. I wonder how my law friends do it... Props to y'all man because I'm already dying halfway reading all these sections haha.
p/s: I'm going for a concert one day before my last paper so let's just hope I turn up for my paper the next day :-)
Love,
Char
